I can, and I can't

I can't seem to fall asleep before 1am.

I usually can't remember my day to day schedule without help.

I can't remember people's names to save my life.

I can't cook.

I can't find the time to clean out my car, do all of my laundry, clean my bedroom, or even put my hair products back in my bathroom drawer.

I can't seem to stop drinking Dr Pepper.

BUT

I can operate on little/no sleep.

I can remember to update my planner, so (almost) nothing gets forgotten.

I'm really good with faces. I may not remember your name, but I will remember your face.

I can find time to do everything else in my life.


AND

If I make a mistake, I will admit it. If something is my fault, I will admit it.

I don't play games because I don't see the point.

I'm honest because honesty is extremely important to me.

I can take and learn from criticism because I believe it will make me a better person.

I am a great stage manager.


That is all.

Superheroes

Some people wish they had a superhero to save them. Me? I wish I WAS a superhero.

Also, Funny Girl is performing at the SCERA Shell on June 10th-21st! Come see it! It is hands down the biggest show I've ever done as a stage manager. And the thought of tech week is currently terrifying me, but I'm taking it one day at a time. Saying to myself "You can DO this!". And I think I'm actually starting to listen to the GOOD little voice in my head.

Letter To The Voice In My Head

Nagging.
Screaming.
Red hot in the back of my head and the pit of my stomach.
Second guessing,
second besting
you're actually making me worse!
I will shake you off
I will break you off
Until you are broken and bleeding,
whimpering so far back in my mind
that I will easily smother the spirit breaking words
that seem to be all you can utter.

Love,
Lindsi