My Manifesto

I Believe In:

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
Courage
Laughing
Crying
Eating as many KitKats as you want on a Sunday night
Enjoying being alone
Taking breaks from life
Working hard, and doing the best job you can in everything
The healing power of friendship (corny, I know, but still so true)
Having dreams
You can change someone's day just by smiling at them
Feeling pretty
Treating yourself every once in awhile
Listening to people
Breathing
Humbling yourself, and listening to criticism with an open mind
Standing up for yourself and what you believe in
Having boundaries
Being who you are, no matter what people think
Never giving up
Trusting yourself
Wearing what you like
Working in a place that makes you happy
Being happy in the circumstances that you've been given

So, my blog has been a bit depressing lately. Partly because of things that have been happening, and partly because the reality of graduating from college is hitting me and scaring me. Because I've been so stressed lately, I've decided to try and set aside the problems that I have and focus on the good things in my life. Because there are SO MANY good things.

- Working at the SCERA! Love, love, love it! Also, I just got the news that I will be stage managing one of their summer shows (Camp Rock! Yeah!) with one of my favorite people directing.

- Working on Annie with another favorite person directing. She reads this blog too! ;)

- GRADUATING!! So excited! 6 weeks and I will be finished with school forever. I can do anything I want, go anywhere I want! I'm practically jumping up an down with joy just thinking about it!

- I'm going to be an aunt! My sister-in-law is having a baby in August!

- Heather Burgess, Andrew Joy, Janae Pettit, Mandy Singleton, Jackie Johnson, DeLayne Dayton, and my many other wonderful friends. I'm so lucky, and so blessed.

- Many, many other things that just aren't springing to mind right now. I am so blessed, but even more importantly, I am SO loved.

Things lately have been hard. Overwhelmed, and exhausted are the two words I would choose to
use to describe myself lately. I've been this busy before don't get me wrong, but there's the added stress of graduating that makes me all the more crazy.

Yesterday was a particularly hard day. I had a migraine but had to go to school anyway, rehearsals for my new show were starting and I didn't have time to prepare the way I wanted to, I had a concept assessment for a class that I could only study for for a few minutes, and a particularly hard statistics midterm was weighing on my mind all day. Needless to say I wasn't in the best of moods as I went to my second class of the day.

As I stood by the elevator worrying about my assignment that I had completed literally 5 minutes before I left for class I started tearing up. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't find time to complete my homework, do my laundry, sleep more than four hours, get anywhere on time, or even walk onto the elevator to get to class. I was too tired.

"I can't do this alone" I said to myself. "Not anymore"

"You don't have to" something whispered to me. I pulled out my phone and called a friend of mine and arraigned for him to give me a blessing. I forget all too often that I'm not alone. That I don't have to keep everything I'm feeling inside, because there is Someone who always knows how I feel.

The blessing was exactly what I needed to hear. It always is.

Matthew 11:28-30: Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Life is still overwhelming, and still exhausting. Thank God I'm not alone.